Something Bigger

Something bigger is the theme this year for CIY, but it seems to be something I have been thinking about a lot lately. This past year has been a rough one. I have continuously been selfish and have put my desires ahead of God's. I have made poor decisions and pushed God aside. But I have been reminded that nothing is about me. I spend so much time thinking about how I can be better, successful, or accepted. I listen to all the opinions of others but don't stop to listen to the only voice that matters. God has broken me down to show me that only He satisfies. When will I finally start listening to Him? The answer is now. Right now. I want to stop living for myself. I am so thankful that God has placed me on camp team this summer even though I really didn't want to do it at first. Already after 1 week of camp and a few days at CIY, God has surrounding me with great people, and a passion to serve him. I am excited to see what happens from here. Waking up every morning to the mountains right outside my window reminds me of how big God is, and how small I am compared to him. I am so thankful that even though I continue to fall short, God still loves me, right where I am at. My journey continues. Changes have to made in my life. 2 Timothy 1:7 says that God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, love, and self discipline. I can't do things on my own, nor do I want to anymore. There is something way bigger than me.